Sure... but it's more than that. It's not just a celebration of surviving another year or anything - but a celebration of you. A celebration for the person you are and the life you lived and a time for the people you love to show they care.
And I do love you, so I'm willing to make the day about you.
...? Oh, I don't need a surprise or anything like that. Besides... I just said I can't think of anything I'd like more than baking with you. I don't need anything else, so long as you're there.
[ He adjusts a little so he can get comfortable, and then wraps his arms around Flamebringer and presses a small kiss to his chin. ]
If you'd like, you could give me a tattoo? Surprise me with something that would remind me of you.
Mm'gonna tattoo "Property of Flamebringer" on your ass. [He's kidding.] ...nah, I'll think of something. You don't care where I put something like that?
I'd give it some time to think about something... [ Please don't tattoo that on his ass- ] Not really, no. I mean, I don't really want any face or neck tattoos, but that aside, I'm fine with anything.
[Hand cupping Ezell's face and stroking his cheekbones...]
Your face is too pretty to ruin with shit like that. I'll just do your makeup instead.
[He thinks for a quiet moment, taking Ezell's hand in his free one.]
I'm not doing these either. They're way too soft. Maybe... [He's drunk, so he's not super considering his words right now— but either way, he moves Ezell's hand over his lips and kisses his palm, then up to where his fingers lie at the top of the joint there.] Something here, like a ring...
But doing that seems pointless when I can just get you a real one.
[ ...then he's completely flustered once he realizes the implications of the rest. Like, on the one hand, Flamebringer's drunk and what he spouts should be taken with a grain of salt, but also... ]
I've got designs in mind already. Think I'm gonna do something customized... [Flamebringer babe I hate to tell you this: You probably need to propose first before spoiling the fact that you are planning on it at some point in the future.] ...I drew some designs already.
...........A-are you talking about a tattoo, or...??????
[ Ezell's voice is only hardly above a whisper. Is he talking about a ring? Is he...??? Does he know how that sounds? He surely doesn't mean it as, like, an engagement ring, right? Do they do something different in Kazdel?? Hhhhh- ]
[ It's hard for him to come to terms with Flamebringer meaning anything else. It's hard for him to grasp the intent behind it. Part of Ezell wants to point out that he's drunk! He's drunk, and it's hard to take his words for truth because of that, right?
However, the fact alone that it's getting to Ezell is more the problem. It's not that he's flustered or embarrassed because he'd say no to Flamebringer. He would say "yes". And that terrifies Ezell. He loves Flamebringer so much. His silly tail wags and the way he likes to be close to Ezell. The affection he gives and the protectiveness he naturally has. How cute he is, even now, when he's totally sloshed.
But Ezell does not fit within Flamebringer's wants and dreams for the future. How can he be? He doesn't like to spar or do anything violent. The dream Flamebringer had should be clear for that much. Ezell wants to settle down someday, adopt kids, have a home, maybe even have a calmer job, like a teacher... he'd really like that. But surely something like that doesn't match up with anything Flamebringer would want? And why should he. It's boring, like basically all of what Ezell has to offer.
...
He really shouldn't be overthinking something as silly as a ring, but he really can't help it. He's so afraid to lose Flamebringer. He wants this, too. He does, he does, why does he keep thinking it can't work out???
Tears start to sting his eyes and he buries his face into Flamebringer's chest to hide it. ]
[Tail wagging... until Ezell sort of flops over and sounds a little melancholy? Oh fuck, did he break him... did he do something? He didn't nick his fingers against the crystals on his face right... Real quick, Flamebringer double-checks Ezell's hand to make sure, but there's nothing wrong he sees, so.
...
Fuck what'd he do—]
Babe. [Rubbing Ezell's back between his wings.] I love you too. You good?
Yes. ...wait. Yes, but I'm not proposing right this second. Don't accept yet. I have to get the ring.
[oh my god]
It's gonna be a spoiler if I show you the sketches. [Flamebringer you've already spoiled it.] It's not special if I do it right now when I don't have a ring and we haven't gone on another date and I'm also drunk for it. But yeah, I do wanna spend life with you, I just gotta get good at that whole... [waving his hand around,] Love speech thing, before I make an ass of myself.
I think... I would rather wait until we got back to Terra. N-not that I'm saying no - I'm really not. But... I just think that's a really big decision for you to make. Especially here. What if things are different on Terra because I'm too busy? What if you get harassed because you're dating a Sankta? What if...
...
Sorry. I do love you so, so much. I just don't understand why you love me, too.
[Briefly sad... noooo he wants to marry you HERE >:( you can have a SECOND WEDDING on TERRA!!]
...it's not like we can leave. [Sighs.] Look, I'm pretty sure Closure and Lena are going to clap me on the back if I come back and say I married a Sankta. I don't care if the Lateran Church won't recognize it, we can make the Doctor an ordained minister real quick if we have to. That person does everything.
[Doctor voice: I'm doing what]
...I've got lots of reasons to love you. I don't know how to explain it, I just do. Do I have to have an explanation for it?
Just because I don't understand something, doesn't mean you have to explain it, no. It's okay. I'm just... needlessly worried, I suppose...
...How about this, if you really want to do it here: if you still want to get married after you get the ring, I will be more than happy to accept. Until then, though, I want you to think about it sincerely, my love.
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[Sure buddy, the fact that you care to remember and use it at all says a lot about you, since Kazdelians traditionally just... do Not do that.]
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And I do love you, so I'm willing to make the day about you.
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[At least he's slurring less now... he has not stopped wagging his tail because Boyfriend, though.]
When's yours? Yours is what I care about.
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Hm? January 30th.
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[Kissing Ezell's neck, but not in a horny way necessarily. Just... endlessly affectionate.]
I'll make you a Kazdelian apple cake. S'got apples in it.
[thanks babe]
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Can we make it together? I can't think of anything I'd like more than to bake together on my birthday with you, my love.
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Yeah, sure. How am I supposed to surprise you now, though?
[Finally, he manages to roll over in such a way that it physically drags Ezell on top of him. Now Ezell can use him as a pillow. :) ]
What do you want for your birthday?
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[ He adjusts a little so he can get comfortable, and then wraps his arms around Flamebringer and presses a small kiss to his chin. ]
If you'd like, you could give me a tattoo? Surprise me with something that would remind me of you.
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Your face is too pretty to ruin with shit like that. I'll just do your makeup instead.
[He thinks for a quiet moment, taking Ezell's hand in his free one.]
I'm not doing these either. They're way too soft. Maybe... [He's drunk, so he's not super considering his words right now— but either way, he moves Ezell's hand over his lips and kisses his palm, then up to where his fingers lie at the top of the joint there.] Something here, like a ring...
But doing that seems pointless when I can just get you a real one.
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Y-you'd... want to get me a real ring????
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[Just... yeah.]
I've got designs in mind already. Think I'm gonna do something customized... [Flamebringer babe I hate to tell you this: You probably need to propose first before spoiling the fact that you are planning on it at some point in the future.] ...I drew some designs already.
[Flamebringer.]
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[ Ezell's voice is only hardly above a whisper. Is he talking about a ring? Is he...??? Does he know how that sounds? He surely doesn't mean it as, like, an engagement ring, right? Do they do something different in Kazdel?? Hhhhh- ]
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[Still kissing Ezell's hand kisskisskiss.]
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[ It's hard for him to come to terms with Flamebringer meaning anything else. It's hard for him to grasp the intent behind it. Part of Ezell wants to point out that he's drunk! He's drunk, and it's hard to take his words for truth because of that, right?
However, the fact alone that it's getting to Ezell is more the problem. It's not that he's flustered or embarrassed because he'd say no to Flamebringer. He would say "yes". And that terrifies Ezell. He loves Flamebringer so much. His silly tail wags and the way he likes to be close to Ezell. The affection he gives and the protectiveness he naturally has. How cute he is, even now, when he's totally sloshed.
But Ezell does not fit within Flamebringer's wants and dreams for the future. How can he be? He doesn't like to spar or do anything violent. The dream Flamebringer had should be clear for that much. Ezell wants to settle down someday, adopt kids, have a home, maybe even have a calmer job, like a teacher... he'd really like that. But surely something like that doesn't match up with anything Flamebringer would want? And why should he. It's boring, like basically all of what Ezell has to offer.
...
He really shouldn't be overthinking something as silly as a ring, but he really can't help it. He's so afraid to lose Flamebringer. He wants this, too. He does, he does, why does he keep thinking it can't work out???
Tears start to sting his eyes and he buries his face into Flamebringer's chest to hide it. ]
...I love you.
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...
Fuck what'd he do—]
Babe. [Rubbing Ezell's back between his wings.] I love you too. You good?
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Too soon for that kinda thing?
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[oh my god]
It's gonna be a spoiler if I show you the sketches. [Flamebringer you've already spoiled it.] It's not special if I do it right now when I don't have a ring and we haven't gone on another date and I'm also drunk for it. But yeah, I do wanna spend life with you, I just gotta get good at that whole... [waving his hand around,] Love speech thing, before I make an ass of myself.
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I think... I would rather wait until we got back to Terra. N-not that I'm saying no - I'm really not. But... I just think that's a really big decision for you to make. Especially here. What if things are different on Terra because I'm too busy? What if you get harassed because you're dating a Sankta? What if...
...
Sorry. I do love you so, so much. I just don't understand why you love me, too.
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...it's not like we can leave. [Sighs.] Look, I'm pretty sure Closure and Lena are going to clap me on the back if I come back and say I married a Sankta. I don't care if the Lateran Church won't recognize it, we can make the Doctor an ordained minister real quick if we have to. That person does everything.
[Doctor voice: I'm doing what]
...I've got lots of reasons to love you. I don't know how to explain it, I just do. Do I have to have an explanation for it?
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...How about this, if you really want to do it here: if you still want to get married after you get the ring, I will be more than happy to accept. Until then, though, I want you to think about it sincerely, my love.
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[Sigh.]
Man, I think that discussion sobered me up. [Turns out a kind of rejection before the actual idea got too involved kinda does that!]
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