[Hand cupping Ezell's face and stroking his cheekbones...]
Your face is too pretty to ruin with shit like that. I'll just do your makeup instead.
[He thinks for a quiet moment, taking Ezell's hand in his free one.]
I'm not doing these either. They're way too soft. Maybe... [He's drunk, so he's not super considering his words right now— but either way, he moves Ezell's hand over his lips and kisses his palm, then up to where his fingers lie at the top of the joint there.] Something here, like a ring...
But doing that seems pointless when I can just get you a real one.
[ ...then he's completely flustered once he realizes the implications of the rest. Like, on the one hand, Flamebringer's drunk and what he spouts should be taken with a grain of salt, but also... ]
I've got designs in mind already. Think I'm gonna do something customized... [Flamebringer babe I hate to tell you this: You probably need to propose first before spoiling the fact that you are planning on it at some point in the future.] ...I drew some designs already.
...........A-are you talking about a tattoo, or...??????
[ Ezell's voice is only hardly above a whisper. Is he talking about a ring? Is he...??? Does he know how that sounds? He surely doesn't mean it as, like, an engagement ring, right? Do they do something different in Kazdel?? Hhhhh- ]
[ It's hard for him to come to terms with Flamebringer meaning anything else. It's hard for him to grasp the intent behind it. Part of Ezell wants to point out that he's drunk! He's drunk, and it's hard to take his words for truth because of that, right?
However, the fact alone that it's getting to Ezell is more the problem. It's not that he's flustered or embarrassed because he'd say no to Flamebringer. He would say "yes". And that terrifies Ezell. He loves Flamebringer so much. His silly tail wags and the way he likes to be close to Ezell. The affection he gives and the protectiveness he naturally has. How cute he is, even now, when he's totally sloshed.
But Ezell does not fit within Flamebringer's wants and dreams for the future. How can he be? He doesn't like to spar or do anything violent. The dream Flamebringer had should be clear for that much. Ezell wants to settle down someday, adopt kids, have a home, maybe even have a calmer job, like a teacher... he'd really like that. But surely something like that doesn't match up with anything Flamebringer would want? And why should he. It's boring, like basically all of what Ezell has to offer.
...
He really shouldn't be overthinking something as silly as a ring, but he really can't help it. He's so afraid to lose Flamebringer. He wants this, too. He does, he does, why does he keep thinking it can't work out???
Tears start to sting his eyes and he buries his face into Flamebringer's chest to hide it. ]
[Tail wagging... until Ezell sort of flops over and sounds a little melancholy? Oh fuck, did he break him... did he do something? He didn't nick his fingers against the crystals on his face right... Real quick, Flamebringer double-checks Ezell's hand to make sure, but there's nothing wrong he sees, so.
...
Fuck what'd he do—]
Babe. [Rubbing Ezell's back between his wings.] I love you too. You good?
Yes. ...wait. Yes, but I'm not proposing right this second. Don't accept yet. I have to get the ring.
[oh my god]
It's gonna be a spoiler if I show you the sketches. [Flamebringer you've already spoiled it.] It's not special if I do it right now when I don't have a ring and we haven't gone on another date and I'm also drunk for it. But yeah, I do wanna spend life with you, I just gotta get good at that whole... [waving his hand around,] Love speech thing, before I make an ass of myself.
I think... I would rather wait until we got back to Terra. N-not that I'm saying no - I'm really not. But... I just think that's a really big decision for you to make. Especially here. What if things are different on Terra because I'm too busy? What if you get harassed because you're dating a Sankta? What if...
...
Sorry. I do love you so, so much. I just don't understand why you love me, too.
[Briefly sad... noooo he wants to marry you HERE >:( you can have a SECOND WEDDING on TERRA!!]
...it's not like we can leave. [Sighs.] Look, I'm pretty sure Closure and Lena are going to clap me on the back if I come back and say I married a Sankta. I don't care if the Lateran Church won't recognize it, we can make the Doctor an ordained minister real quick if we have to. That person does everything.
[Doctor voice: I'm doing what]
...I've got lots of reasons to love you. I don't know how to explain it, I just do. Do I have to have an explanation for it?
Just because I don't understand something, doesn't mean you have to explain it, no. It's okay. I'm just... needlessly worried, I suppose...
...How about this, if you really want to do it here: if you still want to get married after you get the ring, I will be more than happy to accept. Until then, though, I want you to think about it sincerely, my love.
...I'm sorry. I'm... [ Not a fun person to be around? Yeah, pretty sure Flamebringer knows that. ] I didn't mean for that to come out negatively or anything. It really did make me happy to hear you say that.
[ Gently putting his hands on Flamebringer's cheeks. ]
I love you so much. If it's still okay with you, I'd really like to spend your birthday with you.
...nah. I understand. Societal shit, right? It's too soon anyway, I know it is. Doesn't stop me from thinking, though. Either way... I'd have to go talk to Ain anyway. Don't wanna interfere.
[For as much as he cannot STAND that twink and wants to shake him down, there's a respect thing there. You don't just one-sided marry someone in a polycule unless you've been given permission. Or, like, Ezell should talk to Ain but that's not what Flamebringer's thinking.]
I love you, and yeah, I'm not banning you from spending time with me. Just... give me a minute or ten, alright?
...I don't care what people think of me, but I worry that you'll be harassed. [ Not even necessarily by other Sarkaz, but by Sankta. None on the landship, of course! Rhodes is pretty good about this sort of thing. He cannot say the same for anyone else, though. ]
Yeah, I get it. I wouldn't want to explicitly say anything before talking with him anyway. I... I'm just sorry I brought your mood down.
[ He leaves Flamebringer with a small peck on the lips before he's removing himself from on him, looking... guilty, more than anything. He loves Flamebringer. He does. He wants to spend the rest of his life with him. But he's also so sure Flamebringer is going to realize that being with Ezell is a mistake, and Ezell is so afraid of that heartache. ]
I'll head downstairs for a bit, but you'll let me know if there's something I can do to fix this...?
[Sitting up... only to flop down properly onto the mattress again after he'd sort of flipped around it wildly the first time Ezell came in. Ugh, he needs to lay down and be sober, but also...]
Nah, there's nothing to fix. It's not that I'm mad at you or anything. Just let me cool off for a second.
...
I'm still going to work on that ring. And if you don't want it to mean anything, it doesn't have to. It'll be a gift and nothing else.
F-Flamebringer, I... [ He had literally just said he'd be "more than happy to accept". He doesn't want Flamebringer to think that part wasn't a lie or anything! He really would be more than happy!! ] ...It'll mean something. No matter the circumstances, it'll mean something, and I would forever cherish something like that because I cherish all the time we've spent together.
...I'll make some coffee for you downstairs. You don't have to drink it, since I know it doesn't go well with alcohol. But if you decide you do want it, it'll be there.
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Your face is too pretty to ruin with shit like that. I'll just do your makeup instead.
[He thinks for a quiet moment, taking Ezell's hand in his free one.]
I'm not doing these either. They're way too soft. Maybe... [He's drunk, so he's not super considering his words right now— but either way, he moves Ezell's hand over his lips and kisses his palm, then up to where his fingers lie at the top of the joint there.] Something here, like a ring...
But doing that seems pointless when I can just get you a real one.
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Y-you'd... want to get me a real ring????
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[Just... yeah.]
I've got designs in mind already. Think I'm gonna do something customized... [Flamebringer babe I hate to tell you this: You probably need to propose first before spoiling the fact that you are planning on it at some point in the future.] ...I drew some designs already.
[Flamebringer.]
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[ Ezell's voice is only hardly above a whisper. Is he talking about a ring? Is he...??? Does he know how that sounds? He surely doesn't mean it as, like, an engagement ring, right? Do they do something different in Kazdel?? Hhhhh- ]
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[Still kissing Ezell's hand kisskisskiss.]
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[ It's hard for him to come to terms with Flamebringer meaning anything else. It's hard for him to grasp the intent behind it. Part of Ezell wants to point out that he's drunk! He's drunk, and it's hard to take his words for truth because of that, right?
However, the fact alone that it's getting to Ezell is more the problem. It's not that he's flustered or embarrassed because he'd say no to Flamebringer. He would say "yes". And that terrifies Ezell. He loves Flamebringer so much. His silly tail wags and the way he likes to be close to Ezell. The affection he gives and the protectiveness he naturally has. How cute he is, even now, when he's totally sloshed.
But Ezell does not fit within Flamebringer's wants and dreams for the future. How can he be? He doesn't like to spar or do anything violent. The dream Flamebringer had should be clear for that much. Ezell wants to settle down someday, adopt kids, have a home, maybe even have a calmer job, like a teacher... he'd really like that. But surely something like that doesn't match up with anything Flamebringer would want? And why should he. It's boring, like basically all of what Ezell has to offer.
...
He really shouldn't be overthinking something as silly as a ring, but he really can't help it. He's so afraid to lose Flamebringer. He wants this, too. He does, he does, why does he keep thinking it can't work out???
Tears start to sting his eyes and he buries his face into Flamebringer's chest to hide it. ]
...I love you.
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...
Fuck what'd he do—]
Babe. [Rubbing Ezell's back between his wings.] I love you too. You good?
...
Too soon for that kinda thing?
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[oh my god]
It's gonna be a spoiler if I show you the sketches. [Flamebringer you've already spoiled it.] It's not special if I do it right now when I don't have a ring and we haven't gone on another date and I'm also drunk for it. But yeah, I do wanna spend life with you, I just gotta get good at that whole... [waving his hand around,] Love speech thing, before I make an ass of myself.
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I think... I would rather wait until we got back to Terra. N-not that I'm saying no - I'm really not. But... I just think that's a really big decision for you to make. Especially here. What if things are different on Terra because I'm too busy? What if you get harassed because you're dating a Sankta? What if...
...
Sorry. I do love you so, so much. I just don't understand why you love me, too.
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...it's not like we can leave. [Sighs.] Look, I'm pretty sure Closure and Lena are going to clap me on the back if I come back and say I married a Sankta. I don't care if the Lateran Church won't recognize it, we can make the Doctor an ordained minister real quick if we have to. That person does everything.
[Doctor voice: I'm doing what]
...I've got lots of reasons to love you. I don't know how to explain it, I just do. Do I have to have an explanation for it?
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...How about this, if you really want to do it here: if you still want to get married after you get the ring, I will be more than happy to accept. Until then, though, I want you to think about it sincerely, my love.
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[Sigh.]
Man, I think that discussion sobered me up. [Turns out a kind of rejection before the actual idea got too involved kinda does that!]
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[ Gently putting his hands on Flamebringer's cheeks. ]
I love you so much. If it's still okay with you, I'd really like to spend your birthday with you.
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...nah. I understand. Societal shit, right? It's too soon anyway, I know it is. Doesn't stop me from thinking, though. Either way... I'd have to go talk to Ain anyway. Don't wanna interfere.
[For as much as he cannot STAND that twink and wants to shake him down, there's a respect thing there. You don't just one-sided marry someone in a polycule unless you've been given permission. Or, like, Ezell should talk to Ain but that's not what Flamebringer's thinking.]
I love you, and yeah, I'm not banning you from spending time with me. Just... give me a minute or ten, alright?
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Yeah, I get it. I wouldn't want to explicitly say anything before talking with him anyway. I... I'm just sorry I brought your mood down.
[ He leaves Flamebringer with a small peck on the lips before he's removing himself from on him, looking... guilty, more than anything. He loves Flamebringer. He does. He wants to spend the rest of his life with him. But he's also so sure Flamebringer is going to realize that being with Ezell is a mistake, and Ezell is so afraid of that heartache. ]
I'll head downstairs for a bit, but you'll let me know if there's something I can do to fix this...?
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Nah, there's nothing to fix. It's not that I'm mad at you or anything. Just let me cool off for a second.
...
I'm still going to work on that ring. And if you don't want it to mean anything, it doesn't have to. It'll be a gift and nothing else.
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...I'll make some coffee for you downstairs. You don't have to drink it, since I know it doesn't go well with alcohol. But if you decide you do want it, it'll be there.
[ Aaaand he's gone. Just like that. ]